Saturday, 24 May 2008
6
6 more hours to go. right now i think would kill someone if it would let me sleep. i hope the psychiatrist prescribes sleeping pills. that would be nice. easy way to go too. i hate this blog. i hate having so little secrets. why do i do it? almost every single irrational bullshit thought ends up here. just take no notice. im rambling again. random stream of consciousness bullshit. dont expect any sense. just talking for the sake of it. fr something to do. anything to get through the night and the pain. i want to smash something up. i want to hurt myself with broken glass. i want to gouge my eyes out. not really. dont really know what im saying. the words are just splilling oyt. god no one should ever read this. all i have to do is not hit the publish post button. no one need ever see it. its just one big jumbled up paragraph anyway. no one can be bothered to read this surely. a mess of unbroken words like this would put anyone off. why do i even need to let anyone see it. i know im still going to post it anyway. that must mean i want people to see it really. i really am fucked up. i cant make sense of anything. dont know what else to say relly.
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What's sad is I've been prescribed Ambien to help me sleep, but the Seroquel gives me massive insomnia. The Ambien can't overcome the Seroquel insomnia. I take an Ambien every night and it doesn't seem to work. I think I'm just wasting my money on it. Thank God I'm supposed to be getting off Seroquel and onto Topamax.
You're not "fucked up." You just have some problems right now. I have faith that you'll make it through. Just believe in yourself. If I can make it through each day, anyone can.
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