supposed to be going out tonight. doubt i can face it. can't bear being alone. cant bear being in a room full of people. whata mess to be in. hard to think straight. so much to do and all i can think is go buy a penknife
I think it should go without saying that knives and whisky are not the solution. They are not even temporary sticking plasters to the symptoms, however much they may appear to be.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but it looks like you're shying away from doing normal things because you do not feel normal inside, and that you're worried about breaking down away from the sanctity of your bedroom (which is pefectly understandable).
To me, it looked like the evidence was pointing toward this... when you were doing normal things (riding your bike, listening to van halen) then they -made- you feel normal.
The conclusion would be to go and do lots more normal things, instead of hiding away at home. It's likely that my all too simple logic is completely missing the point, but, can you see when I'm going with it?
Sure, the 'come down' from normality back to depression is very unplesant (probably a massive understatement), but at least you'd have had a brief respite from suffering it. Maybe, the next time you do normal things, the normal feeling will last longer, and the comedown would be less severe.
Of course, I may be completely wrong. I'm a well meaning computer programmer, not a [insert the correct -ologist here].
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I think it should go without saying that knives and whisky are not the solution. They are not even temporary sticking plasters to the symptoms, however much they may appear to be.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but it looks like you're shying away from doing normal things because you do not feel normal inside, and that you're worried about breaking down away from the sanctity of your bedroom (which is pefectly understandable).
To me, it looked like the evidence was pointing toward this... when you were doing normal things (riding your bike, listening to van halen) then they -made- you feel normal.
The conclusion would be to go and do lots more normal things, instead of hiding away at home. It's likely that my all too simple logic is completely missing the point, but, can you see when I'm going with it?
Sure, the 'come down' from normality back to depression is very unplesant (probably a massive understatement), but at least you'd have had a brief respite from suffering it. Maybe, the next time you do normal things, the normal feeling will last longer, and the comedown would be less severe.
Of course, I may be completely wrong. I'm a well meaning computer programmer, not a [insert the correct -ologist here].
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