Can't sleep tonight. At all. Just gonna sit here and type for a bit. Don't really have anything to say. But I don't know what else to do. Tried playing Guild Wars earlier but my heart wasn't in it. Really am at a loss what to do.
At this time in the morning you really are on your own. It's not like you can phone someone or go somewhere. I was feeling really stressed out at Phil and Params earlier, I wonder if that's why I'm still a bit hyper. Probably shouldn't have gone out feeling the way I did. But I didn't fancy staying in at all.
This is in danger of turning into a long rambling stream of consciousness. Although I don't really know why that would be a problem. I am only doing this right now to kill some time after all. It might make for tedious reading but I have to remind myself that I do this for my benefit, not yours. But that feels horribly selfish of me. I keep trying to tell myself I should probably be more selfish but it's just completely against my nature. Which is odd considering how introverted I am. You would think that someone as introspective as me would only care about himself.
Think I'll stop there before this rambles into the realms of hideous self pity. My apologies for such a rubbish post.
4 comments:
Don't apologize for "rubbish." You write what you have to when you feel like you need to.
I have trouble sleeping a lot too. I have sleeping pills, but I'm scared to take them sometimes because of all the medications I'm on for borderline personality disorder and depression. Normally when I can't sleep, I just lay in bed staring at the ceiling. I don't get up cuz I don't want to disturb my husband's sleep. If I got up, my blog would be filled with middle-of-the-night "rubbish" posts. Actually I post a bunch of useless crap during the day. :D
Wow. Quite scary to realise that people other than my friends might be reading this.
The 'next blog' link at the top of the page will take you to a random blog. I'd expect to see more odd visitors from time to time. Don't worry about it.
As for what to do in the middle of the night, pick up a that book that you've always wanted to read but never have. Or, find a book that you love and leave that next to your bed.
I think you should keep rambling. Better out than in (taking a leaf out of Mog's rather gassy book). Don't bottle things up.
"I'd expect to see more odd visitors from time to time."
Are you calling me "odd" ? LOL
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