going mad

dont know how much more of this insomnia i can take. feel like im going mad. seriously. i wnt to cry. i want to hurt myself. i just want to sleep for god sake. is it too much to ask. at least the tears are comig again now. maybe i can cry myself to sleep. even if i dont at least it passes the time. i cant go on like this. i just cant. hopw can it be so hard to sleep. how how how. god im pathetic. im so tired i want to scream. i cant even think staright anymore. another long night of this. how the fuck can i get through this again. its just to hard. i dont know what to do anymore. i feel like downing the contents of the medicine cabinet just to close my eyes. dont want to be stuck here in this prison for another night of this.